Celebrating my Supporters

2 years ago I was celebrating the goddesses and my husband that got me through my darkest days!!!! So grateful (not pictured: Jason Saffran who is also one of those goddesses)

Bookending this saga...it definitely isn’t over but we started this journey with a photo and we decided to book end it with another at my 3 month check up! Thank you so much Cecilia Najar for traveling to Duarte yesterday like it was nothing...it is NOT nothing it is SOME-THING AMAZING! I am so blessed for my man who is my person and safe harbor and my circle of girlfriends who surrounded me with love and never let me be alone in this process. Them and all of YOU who reminded me over and over that I was not alone. I’m back to wearing my jeans and t shirt uniform every once in a while even!!! Now if that isn’t a sign I don’t know what is! Doctor is very pleased and said my blood work is great! Love love love Dr Ernest Han at City of Hope. He is a badass along with my oncologist Dr Gottfried Konecny who is also a total badass!!!! EVERY Dr. will have their own unique perspective on what you need to do...they will sometimes agree on certain things like the normal protocol but interestingly enough they disagreed about the trial I was offered. It can be daunting to try and figure out who is “right”. I can only try and truly listen to myself when I am calm and grounded and take my direction from there after really listening to all the experts in this field. Here’s what I know right now...technically I am “no evidence of disease” -yay! Statistically the recurrence rate is 80 percent within 18 months. Boo! One Dr. says all you can do is wait...one says more drugs in a trial...opposite ends of the spectrum. My alternative doctors say there are MANY things I can do to treat the microscopic cells that are still inside. I feel that is my happy medium between these two extremes and I feel that this is the best route for ME. Alternative medicine as I get healthier and healthier the further away I get from my chemo treatments is my choice. Getting myself to a place where I can live a stress free life...that is my goal and I’m putting it out there for everyone and the universe to hear! I am not scared to die but I am scared of dying without truly living my best life and being creative and doing things that matter if that makes any sense...but I’m going to squeeze every bit of magic out of the time I have on this planet and maybe that will last for 30 more years!!!! Ya never know do ya? Sending love to everyone who is reading this and who is following my journey